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Heart skips a beat

Updated: Mar 2


Handing you over to a surgeon

My heart stayed right beside you

Feeling so very hopeless


As he works on what’s inside you


Praying we made a good decision

Longest hours of my life

Stabbing feelings of worry

Cut through my soul like a knife


Hardest part of motherhood

Seeing your precious child in pain

Hoping all this will be worth it

Fear falls down like rain


Hope is what I hold on to

It’s what is keeping me together

Never felt like this before

Surgery feels like forever


Seconds turn to minutes

Minutes turn to hours

Time is irrelevant at this point

God please grant the surgeon power


To heal my son and fix his heart

I beg of this from you

Tears fall down as prayers fly up

Not sure what is left to do


Wait and wait and wait some more

Until I hear a noise

Look up anxiously at the door

And then I hear his voice


The surgeon starts to speak

I begin to hold my breath

He tells me my son has made it through

Elephant gets off my chest


Tears of joy flow from my eyes

Rushing in to see him

Dreams and possibilities start to rise

Now there’s a future to believe in





As a mother, you NEVER anticipate that your child will be born with a CHD (congenital heart defect). In fact, the first thing I remember saying when pregnant before I found out the sex of my baby was, "I don't care if my baby is a boy or a girl as long as they are healthy." But what if they AREN'T? I'll tell you what!! It doesn't make you love them any less! I wish I would have never spoken those words. What I should have said was, "I will love my child NO MATTER WHAT!" Because that is the the TRUTH. My journey with my son that has a heart defect has been a challenge FOR SURE, but I would never change him, or change my situation. I have learned and grown SOOOO MUCH through our trials! He is an incredible kid, and his struggles truly have shaped him to be the strong, kind, fierce, loving child that he is.



Thanks for listening!


-Carli





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