Handing you over to a surgeon
My heart stayed right beside you
Feeling so very hopeless
As he works on what’s inside you
Praying we made a good decision
Longest hours of my life
Stabbing feelings of worry
Cut through my soul like a knife
Hardest part of motherhood
Seeing your precious child in pain
Hoping all this will be worth it
Fear falls down like rain
Hope is what I hold on to
It’s what is keeping me together
Never felt like this before
Surgery feels like forever
Seconds turn to minutes
Minutes turn to hours
Time is irrelevant at this point
God please grant the surgeon power
To heal my son and fix his heart
I beg of this from you
Tears fall down as prayers fly up
Not sure what is left to do
Wait and wait and wait some more
Until I hear a noise
Look up anxiously at the door
And then I hear his voice
The surgeon starts to speak
I begin to hold my breath
He tells me my son has made it through
Elephant gets off my chest
Tears of joy flow from my eyes
Rushing in to see him
Dreams and possibilities start to rise
Now there’s a future to believe in
As a mother, you NEVER anticipate that your child will be born with a CHD (congenital heart defect). In fact, the first thing I remember saying when pregnant before I found out the sex of my baby was, "I don't care if my baby is a boy or a girl as long as they are healthy." But what if they AREN'T? I'll tell you what!! It doesn't make you love them any less! I wish I would have never spoken those words. What I should have said was, "I will love my child NO MATTER WHAT!" Because that is the the TRUTH. My journey with my son that has a heart defect has been a challenge FOR SURE, but I would never change him, or change my situation. I have learned and grown SOOOO MUCH through our trials! He is an incredible kid, and his struggles truly have shaped him to be the strong, kind, fierce, loving child that he is.
Thanks for listening!